One month down on this deployment.

I miss him so much.

Life here in gulfport is so stressful. Taking care of these kids and all the mess I had to clean up when I got here. I have too much to worry about. I can't wait to go back home to VA. to our home. Our bed, our couch.

I've been going to the gym alot. It's really kicking my butt. This is my second week and already I'm losing the motivation to go. I just don't wanna. I'm so stressed and upset, I just want to sleep.

But alas with these kids, I can't. I have so much to do.

I have carepackages I have to do. I gotta do a pinup angels one(easter), one for Angies birthday, and another for Victor. And all 3 of them are completely separate.

I hope she pays me and it's worth it come the first.

I'm just going to ask her if I can just get the 500 bucks separate from what she gives to maintain the house. Because there are people that do the same thing I'm doing that get paid 500 a week. A WEEK. And she's already told me thats how much she was planning on paying me for the month.

I can't wait to go home. I miss Erin. She means alot to me. It's hard to find friends especially good ones that you can trust, and i feel i can really trust her. Plus she's lotsa fun! And i can't wait for more Pinup Angels events! They're so much fun.

The school needs me to have a notary there to see that I signed a permission slip for kaleah. Pretty ridiculous and a huge waste of time. SO I gotta wait in line for someone to watch me sign a piece of paper. ridiculous.

I just wanna go home. I don't wanna do this anymore.

Wow.
It has been quite sometime since I posted here. I won't lie, I forgot about it. Yes, for a year. :P

So Update time;
We've been married over a year, we're living in Hampton Roads, VA. We've had a few bumps in the beginning, but we were just getting used to each other, and he was getting used to being in the Navy. We're moving into another apartment next month which I'm stupidly excited about. It's going to have a washer and dryer in the unit, a dishwasher, a fireplace, a patio, and it's really cute!! We'll also be able to get a puppy, so I'll have someone to keep me company while he's gone xD.

I've done a few photoshoots which have been alot of fun so I'll post them here. :)


With surrendered Souls photography back in AL




Now my most recent stuff xD

David Blacklock Photography


Maya Photography


Pinup with BeachPhoto
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Hairstylist: me







My newest stuff GBI Graphics
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Wee!!!
xD

I haven't posted pics in a while, i know. So here are some pictures for Our engagement! They're beautiful.


Walking


Gazing


There's no Kiss Like a Sailor's Kiss


On the shoreline


My Boo!


My Soon to be Hubby and Moi


I Love him


Our toes

He proposed right on the shoreline, it was beautiful.


The day started with a phone call from and Enterprise phone number(I.e. 347-XXXX) at 10:11 am. I absolutely hate picking up the phone from people right when I wake up, so obviously, I didn't. But I still didn't know who the heck it was and why some random Enterprisian would call me at 10 am on a Saturday. So I called my Shnookums, b/c maybe he would know. He picked up and was sounding uber excited, which frankly, "exciting" and "morning" do not go together very well in my sleepy-headed mind, so now I'm even more confused simply from his tone.

"I was about to call you!! Level Plains is doing this thing with the mail and leaving money in an envelope!! My parents just got 20 bucks!!"

I'm like..."uhhh...Huh???"

"Go CHECK!!"

"Well...uhh, I suppose I'll go check then...I'll call you back?"

"Okay! Bye!"

...this makes no sense...

So now I get up all decked out in my uber unsexy pajamas. I throw on my jacket about to go investigate my mailbox when Tricia calls...so I'm like man I'm already awake, I should answer.

"OMG! I just got a bunch of money in my mailbox, Enterprise and Level Plains are doing this th..."

"Dude...seriously...That's retarded. Why would only you and Victor get that but noone else? That makes no sense...What's going on??"

*Long pause*

"well, crap...seriously, go check your mailbox.."

"why? What's there?"

"Just GO!!!"

"Jeez...okay."

Now I'm extra confused, but still somewhat satisfied with myself for figuring this part out. It was very cold..my mailbox is very faraway, but I trekked across my yard got the envelope with my name on it, praying that noone was going to see me or jump out at me, b/c my hair was funny lookin and I was in my p.jays.
I ran back inside with my newly acquired envelope and read it. (I'm not going to publicize everything exactly, simply b/c I'd like some things to be private, but on every card, there was a long paragraph, which was then followed by directions.)

"Beginnings and first impressions are critical.........
Go to where we first met each other."

I'm flabbergasted. This has to be the cutest thing, ever. Omg, my Victor is awesome. I already had tears in my eyes, so happy that he did just that, I had no idea, what else he had in store for me.

I quickly got dressed and drove to where we first met, remembering all the times we sat out there and just talked. How we would debate streetfighter and be silly and How I thought he was so wonderful. How he made me laugh. How he challenged me and how much I enjoyed his company. He was good buddy, and we both wanted more, but didn't do anything about it just yet. Just hung out at work. I remember going to work and hoping he'd be there, he was such a hoot. I remember when he was about to cut his hair and he came in there and was like say good bye to this, I'm chopping it off and enlisting in the air force soon. He was so proud. I didn't want him to go. I still feel guilty over that. He wasn't mine at all, he was just a buddy, but I really didn't want him to go. We had just become acquaintences, I was so looking forward to becoming friends with him. We seemed to compliment each other well...I feel bad, like b/c I didn't want him to go, that's why he didn't get in... It's ridiculous, it really is, we didn't even know each other. So I tugged at his purdy hair that he always had tied back and wished him luck.

Anyway, getting off-topic, so I walk into Sam Goody and there Thomas was, holding the next envelope. He wished me luck and I sped off on my way. Eager to find the gold at the end of this rainbow. Thank you Thomas, for taking time to help Victor out. You are a true friend.

".......But I was willing to throw everything away just to have the chance to try, even if it meant just attempting chopsticks just so you could laugh at me and smile....
...Go to where we had our first date."

Which brought me to the memories of eating at Jin Jins with him and discussing everything and anything. I've never been able to talk to anyone like I could talk to him. We debated about nothing and discussed everything. From Video Games, to hating Morgan Webb, to military, to the correct way to use chopsticks, to his family, to my family, to our childhoods. Everything, so easily. It just flowed like water.
Him trying to use chopsticks. How he would get chopsticks everytime and try...until his hands hurt and he would get a fork... after just a little while, he was using chopsticks like a pro. Now anytime we eat any kind of asian cuisine, he uses chopsticks. He loved making me giggle. You know I was laughing with you, honey. You were laughing, too.

Anyway, Tricia was waiting there with another envelope. We sat there and chatted for a little while, then I finally opened the envelope, and this card made me cry. not just get teary like the last one but, the tears flowed...

" I am willing to share everything with you. What is mine will become yours. Our love will have a long road ahead and it will certainly be difficult. It could possibly end in the sands of the middle east or the mountains of the orient. Or it could end in a bed, 75 years from now with us holding hands. Either way, I am willing to sacrifice my pride and myself in order to give you everything you wanted and more...
Take my money and fill up your car where I used to work. Grab yourself a root beer and a bag of cheetos, too. You have a long drive ahead of you."

I teared up just typing that. He left some cash in the card so I could fill up my tank and buy some road snacks.

Chris was there waiting for me. I parked at the pump and he came out to me with an envelope. Thank you as well Chris, for waking up all early for us. I know that probably sucked and you seemed tired, I really appreciate it and I know Victor does as well.

"I shared a time with you where I had almost nothing at all to give you or to show for my labor, except a few trips to the drive-in or a chinese dinner...and of course six flags..........I can be something much more. I can be your partner and mate, for life.
...Go to the gas station we stopped at on our midnight drive to the beach."

That's all I could ever want, Victor. I don't care about lots of money and crazy outings all the time. You're all I want.

So I'm driving All the way to the beach....Yeah I know where I'm going...and it's a looong ways away. It always seemed like a super short trip when I was with Victor. Not so quick by yourself.
I got a bit confused in bonifay, b/c when we drove there the only one open was the citgo farther down, but I was at the one earlier on. Anywho, I figured it out and went to the one with the chicken, where wonderful Wally was sitting there waiting for me. Thank you for waiting sooo long!!! You= awesome!!! And especially driving that far. Thank you so much.
This card was the card that made me bawl. He's so much more eloquent on paper than I gave him credit for. I love you so much Victor. And I swear I appreciate everything. Every little thing.

".....But a midnight trip to the beach was a starting point for redemption....I give you my whole being unabashedly...Never forget that and never forget what a gift that is...
Go to where we stayed just a few days ago, in Panama City..."

I finally get to the bech and go to Legacy Inn an Suited, and Elizah is sitting there waiting on the couch for me readin magazines...

I remember we were upstairs in our hot tub, candlelight surrounding us, just relaxing. He grabbed the wine (everything was sooo romantic) and all of a sudden we remembered we didnt have a corkscrew. We laughed about that so much. I called the front desk, and asked the lady if she might have a corkscrew we could possibly borrow. She laughed and said yeah. So vic threw on some clothes and went down there while I went back into the tub to relax again. And then when he popped the champagne, it was crazy. That thing flew!!! And Victor and I giggled...yes, Victor Giggled...okay, fine, he chuckled.

Anywho, I got off track again, so I see Elizah, and she looks up and sees me and gets a huge smile, and we get back in the car. She has the final card and hands it to me.

"If the walls in this hotel could talkk, they could speak a mouthful. I had one of the greatest nights of my life with you just a few floors above where you are standing. I've shared many moments like that with you that it is unbelievable. And don't forget our experiences in the pool. No matter how embarrasing to me that is. I look forward to all the other memories that we will make in places all over the world."

I get teary again. Then she tells me to go to the beach and find him. I park where she tells me to park, get out and continue my mission to find him.

It was freezing outside, and I hoped he hadn't been out there for too long. It was beautiful. We were all alone on the beach. I saw his footprints in the sand and new they were his. I saw him walking towards me, but I wasn't entirely sure. When I got close enough to him where I could read "Navy" on his hat I ran into his arms. We nuzzled there and loved on each other in the warmth of each others arms for a few moments...then he turned me around and held me as we looked out to sea.

"Anytime you miss me, just come to the ocean and look out to sea. And know that I'm probably out there somewhere looking out over the same ocean, missing you just as much."

I look at him with tears in my eyes, b/c that was such a pretty thing to say...So I responded with my own pretty thing.

"But I'd rather look at you."

That got a huge smile and more nuzzles. Then he reached into his pocket, kneeled on one knee and presented the ring to me. He asked me to marry him. He was proposing. I was so amazed that this was actually happening to me. Everything was so perfect. I couldn't believe it. I started crying, I couldn't speak. I was sooo happy. I nodded, my smile was huge. This totally was seriously happening, it was awesome.

"I kinda need your hand."

I laughed so hard that I completely forgot. I quickly removed the ring he gave me that was on that finger and moved it to my right hand. Then presenteed newly naked hand and apologized and cried and laughed. He got up and we hugged and kissed and laughed together as a newly engaged couple. I couldn't stop smiling. Even now...after typing this I just got teary and uber smiley, again. I'm so happy. I felt like I could conquer the world.

Samantha Soon Delgado

Mrs. Victor Aaron Delgado

Yeah...I like it.

I'm the luckiest human being on the planet.
The ring is so beautiful. The diamond has absolutely no impurities to it, and it's pretty big. He looked at oodles of diamonds underneath to microscope to pick the purest one. Not a trace of carbon in this baby. It sparkles so brilliantly in the sunlight. God I'm so lucky.

Next week we'll pretty much know dates, and we'll know when we'd actually get married. After that you can expect a picture in the paper showing us as newly engaged.

I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him,

As my Husband.

My partner. My lover. My Best Friend.

Thank you again to everyone involved, it means soo much to Victor and I.

Had a fun black tape picture day. it was exciting.

I had to come by and edit this a bit, sorry guys.

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